Monday, 26 April 2010
The Citalopram Fan Club
I lived with low mood and anxiety for many years and tried multiple self help techniques that, did not completely cut the mustard. But then as things started to slip further and further, I reluctantly sought medical help and after just one week of taking citalopram I started to notice a difference. When the drugs had kicked in properly I no longer felt that I had my own personal tiger who was chasing me in a perpetual state of heightened anxiety, that unbelievably I believed was normal. I also became less traumatised by criticism, both from myself and other, and with that my risk taking increased in a very positive way.
For the most part I remain content and fulfilled now by maintaining relationships with friends and family, ignoring, as far as possible, the political and bureaucratic dross at work and instead focus on making a difference to others by what I do, and pursuing mad creative projects and outdoor pursuits in my leisure time. Certainly some cognitive behavioural therapy techniques and formal and practical mindfulness practice have been valuable in keeping my gremlins at bay. But the chemical top up that medication provide certainly puts the cherry on the top!