Thursday, 30 December 2010
Now I've got pretty good at analysing my own thinking and gauging whether anything specific is bothering me. But there is nothing specific that I'm excessively fretting about at the moment. Yes, work is a little more stressful than usual, my sleep is not great, a few family worries and a big holiday coming up but nothing dominates my thoughts. More likely it's a bit of everything that's causing this heightened and uncomfortable state of alertness.
There are some practical things I'm doing to get back on track, sorting out solvable problems rather than burying my head in the sand, 'fessing up to my manager that my concentration and hence productivity is less than optimum whilst I'm in this state and taking positive steps to relax and recharge the batteries. My lovely Yoga Nidra CDs have been dusted off to facilitate this. But, there are some things that I can't change and again acceptance has been a valuable concept to me. Observing my anxiety for what it is at the present time and recognising that it is transients seems to facilitate the process of change and allows me to function at a level where I surprise myself.