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In the depths of my depression I didn't relish moments like that. I still had them but they didn't bring the joy that they do now. Yet I was able to mask the feelings of despair so that Louis was unaware of what I was going through. I didn't miss a day of work either. Looking after my kid and holding down a job were pretty much all I could manage though. Looking back, I'm proud I prioritised those two activities. And I'm also grateful that things didn't get a whole lot worse. Even though life didn't seem worth living I was never tempted to contemplate suicide.
Back to Robin Williams. Another good, talented and wise person takes their life. Even those with many gifts are not immune from this horrible illness which has tragic consequences for those who have no rest from the damaging thoughts that it provokes. Rest in peace, good man. I loved you as Mork when I was a child and in Awakenings and Good Morning Vietnam. You will be remembered for the happiness that you brought to others and the compassion that you showed during a life well lived.
It seems an appropriate time to re-out myself, a happy, busy and strong individual, as someone who has suffered mental illness. Thankfully with drugs, self-help therapy and time I recovered fully. I hope with all my heart that I stay well and continue to really enjoy life, especially larking around with my son as that is priceless. There is still stigma attached to mental health problems and I'd lie if I said that I personally hadn't come across it. But it's dwindling and will diminish further if the message that no-one is immune is put out there as often as possible. So I share my story of personal hope freely. If it persuades one person to seek help before another life is prematurely cut short then it's absolutely worth it!