The impact on my personal life was huge. Some nights I was too knackered even to fix myself a simple meal let alone crack on with the house. I don't even think for a minute that I'm the only public sector worker that has been in this situation and in this place, our health is at serious risk. I was very much in victim mode last year. No more! I am going to do everything in my power to preserve that lovely sense of space that hasn't been there for ages even if it means being stroppy when I need to be. It's very precious and I don't want to lose it.
I now have the energy to get the house straight. My bathroom is due to be remodelled at the beginning of February. With a weekend with no plans ahead it looks like I'll be able to finish decorating the landing and crack on with creating a craft area. And I'm using some of my free time to think about occupational therapy related stuff but that's on my own terms rather than being from a need to stay on top of paperwork. There's reading and an article to be written this weekend. These things I do with relish rather than dread.
Most importantly I've got back into a rhythm of life that promotes well-being. I'm eating healthily and reading and meditating daily. There's time to give to my friends and family when they need it. Reinstating regular exercise seemed to be the last piece in the jigsaw andyesterday I got off to a good start with doing that.
Disco Queen Vikki pointed me in the direction of NHS Choices, Couch to 5K programme, a nine week graded exercise programme with podcasts that encourages exercise on alternate days. I've enjoyed running in the past and even done a couple of half marathons. But where does a woman with a knee that's prone to be dodgy start? Well, downloading the app onto my phone was the beginning. And then I spent a week procrastinating. The weather was awful, my headphones weren't charged and I couldn't find a sports bra, essential kit to avoid eye injury! In the end though I ran out of excuses and bit the bullet. I stepped out in the first light of dawn to explore the neighbourhood, admire the really thin moon, the wafty clouds and the birds flying by. There was a five minute warm-up and then eight runs lasting just one minute interspersed with ninety second walks. It was wonderful and very achievable even on Brixham's hills. This couch potato is a convert!