So what's the reason for my complete lethargy? Well these lines sum up the main problem. I'm loving them. They so speak for me. For God knows how many months I've woken in the wee hours in a blind panic about the stuff that shook my view of myself as someone who could pretty much cope with whatever crap life threw at them.
I thought that this time off sick would be a chance to work out the complex stuff like whether I can still sustain working in the mental health sector of the NHS or whether I should look for another job or self employment. But I'm leaping ahead of myself. I realise now that I can't answer things like that until I suss out solutions around getting my basic needs right first. I didn't realise that it would take so long to work these out.