It turns out therapy is enormously hard. No pat on the back and a 'there, there, it will be all right'. I know that the anti-depressant route, where emotions are reigned in chemically, would have brought comfort rather more quickly. But perhaps many of us are too willing to reach for pills and succumb to numbness . Isn't it better to learn to experience the gamut of emotions that are thrown at us, to acknowledge hurt, pain and fear? Aren't they telling us something?
And so I've found that psychotherapy is hard. A can of worms has been opened. I feel ragged after sessions. But I'm hoping that it'll pay dividends. No pain no gain they say. Let's see.