A mindful perspective has changed my life. It's got me through some of the difficult times. Like the twenty four hours of uncertainty when doctors couldn't tell me if I was going to live or die and the three long nights that I spent with my sister at the hospice when she was wakeful and distressed. It's powerful stuff.
But until I read The Power of Now I didn't actually appreciate that I could do a lot more work on stilling my kooky little brain. Eckhart Tolle prefers to use the word 'presence' rather than mindfulness as he thinks that the latter suggests a mind that is full. In my old meditative moments I used to be quite accepting of losing focus and following a train of random thought for minutes at a time. Now I'm far more aware of doing that and seem to be able to get back to focusing on 'The Now' a lot more quickly. That's not just when I'm 'adopting the position' and formally meditate. It's rubbed off into the real world as well.
The effect this is having is quite astounding. I'm busier than I ever have been at work and busy-ness used to equate to a frenzy of fretting. Eckhart Tolle says that we have three choices in a situation. We can walk away, accept or suffer. I need to work to pay the bills and support the kid. Peaceful acceptance seems a no brainer for the time-being.
As I am a tightwad I park my car in a road a few minutes from the office rather than the adjacent car park. It occurred to me yesterday that worrying about the day ahead had been a feature of this walk into town. I'd go over the things that I hadn't done and needed to do until I was in a right old state. I barely noticed my surroundings as I walked.
This week has been different. The route takes me on a path by the banks of the River Erme. Until this week I'd never been mesmerised before by the light bouncing off the water. But I've stopped with a sense of wonder for the last two days. Wow! Yes, there's definitely been a change.